Melatonin: Warning

So I have had insomnia for my whole life, I remember even as a 6 year old being up until all hours of the night trying to think of ways to fall asleep. I have tried everything from over the counter sleep aides to ambien. Nothing even coming close to making me yawn. So a month or two ago my sister told me that she had started taking melatonin and that it was working wonderfully for her. She would fall asleep and the next morning she wasnt groggy at all. So I went and bought a bottle, having tried it already I was skeptical about whether or not it was going to work but I figured Id give it another go as an adult. Boy does it work. Amazing.. the first night however I threw up after I had taken it. The next night I ate something before then on the nights I didnt eat I realized thats what the difference was. So I always take it with something on my stomach. But I was concerned about whether or not it was a common side effect so I got online and looked up melatonin and as it turns out it is related to infertility because it prevents ovulatin and sure enough this month I was a week and a half late for my period. Finally started but Im not usually that late and when I am I usually have a cyst. So just to let all you ladies out there know. I know that insomnia is a symptom of PCOS and that everyone who has this is looking for a way to get some shut eye but just do some research to see if its the best thing for you.

God Bless!

Today

So today is just an average day but for some reason I was in a little bit more pain than usual. Its like I am having period cramps but am no where near my period. I am swollen everywhere, could barley stand to even wear my wedding set. So I know if my fingers are that swollen everything on the inside is that swollen. Not sure if its the weather or what Ive been eating lately. I am very in tune with my body so I always know when something is wrong so I am just going to imagine that I have another larger size cyst coming up on my left ovary, thats where the big ones seem to go. Good things I still have some pain pills left over from surgery, not that the do much for the pain anyways, kind of just knock me out. Of course I am not going to be in pain if Im unconscious. LOL one more month until I can think about trying to get pregnant again. Im fighting a tough personal battle with decided to or not. Doctor said he might start me on Chlomid when I want to activley try agian so I guess well see how it goes.

On another note, for any of you with PCOS out there, have any of you been diagnosed to fibromyalgia? I am trying to get into a researach study at a Univesity here that is surveying people with PCOS to see what type of population has fibromyalgia. Just wanted to know if several or ANY of you had been diagnosed. Please let me know, I would be really interested to see if there is a link between the two. And to find someone to talk to because I have them both and since the fall months are here and winter is approaching I can feel my hips starting to hurt and everything else kind of follows suite. And also if anyone is reading this who lives in the STL area and is interested in starting a phsysical support group shoot me an email. My address is sarahjustinejacobs@gmail.com.

Good night and God bless.

Welcome

Hi. My name is Sarah and I am a soul cyster. I was diagnosed about 7 years ago with PCOD/S and since then I have struggled with it. I went through about 5 doctors until I finally found one willing to work with me with my disease instead of telling me what to do, when I had already done it. I have tried several types of birth control pills to regulate my cycle as well as hormone replacement therapy, weight loss, metformin and other such things. My last straw was last summer when the pain in my pelvic region had become so immense that monthly I was having cyst rupture on my ovaries leaving me in horendous (SP) pain. I was averaging 2-3 doctor visits a month and chronically taking narcotics. It had to stop. So in December of 2009 I had a billateral ovarian wedge resection. That is a fancy way to say that the doctor cut out a slice of each of my ovaries creating a "window" hoping to jump start my hormones. For the first few weeks I was just in pain from recovering from the surgery and when my periods finally started again......so did the pain. I was depressed to think that I may have to live with the pain of this forever. Then in April of 2010 I got pregnant. I was terrified and excited and didnt really know what to do. So I made a doctors apt and had my prenatal blood work drawn. I was 5 weeks when I found out I was pregnant. At week 8 they put me on progesterone. At 10 weeks when I went in for my ultrasound the doctor informed me that there was no heartbeat... no baby. I was shattered. My world was falling down around me and I didnt know where to turn. That weekend I pondered over what could have happened. Was it something that I had done or not done? What happened!? I didnt understand. Dont understand. Later that week, early Thursday morning I began cramping and bleeding and passing larger clots. I was horrified. I called the doctors office who informed me that I needed to go straight to the ER in case I bled out. I decided witht he pain I was more comfortable in the saftey of my bed than in a cold hospital. Early Friday morning I went in for a second ultrasound and a D&C. When I woke up from surgery all I could think was that it was all over. :-( I was a childless mother. The funny thing was that during the two short months that I was with child I was almost pain free. The first period I had after the misscarriage was light and mild with pain. Then my second period happened. It has only been two months since this tragedy and this period I think was the worst of my life. I was doubled over in pain several days even though I wasnt bleeding heavy. I am not sure what physically happened all I know is that I am not ready for the pain to begin again. There are no local support groups and I found it easier to blog about my pregnancy loss online anyways. So for those of you out there with a similiar story, please feel free to share and ask questions. I am at a loss for what to do next. And as always my prayers are with all those who suffer along side me.


-Sarah-